Not over the hill but climbing.

I have been so overwhelmed in just about every aspect of this trip. The commitment level of this life-changing experience is out of this world. Not only giving up everything I know to be security in my life at this moment. At least in the physical viewpoint. But the job, house, my car, any income I would be making, and my free will of doing what I want when I want. Then to throw on top the financial responsibility to be able to go. He is stretching me and making me uncomfortable by making me talk and share with people. I used to like it when the spotlight was on me (B.C. lol) but I seemed to hide from it once I realized I wasn’t doing good for the Kingdom. Then to sprinkle on top, the spiritual ill-preparedness I feel. I didn’t grow up a Christian. There are so many things I’m learning from the Bible. Finally, the aroma of my personal stress from anything else going on in my life.

Side note: I feel like I, and some teammates are being spiritually attacked. The growing pains of committing to this journey. Physically, financially, mentally, and spiritually. To those who have not felt this, Praise be to God!

I started my first event fundraiser, which is a social media Adopt A Box, that will end tonight. The Lord has been so good at being able to connect with old friends and family. I really didn’t want to go through with the social media fundraiser. I was worried about being judged or having old friends look at me saying I’m a Bible thumper, (which, I wish I was) or to have people argue with me and fight the reason why I want to go/being called. Luckily, I had an accountability partner and was able to post it. I have been impressed repeatedly with the amount of people reaching out and helping me. Thank you so much for the people who have prayerfully supported me and to those who have financially given. It gives me a hope for the future and to be prayerfully funded by the deadline of November 30^th, 2020.

In the meantime, I am learning how to deal with life situations and trying to be in the Word more physically. I listen to an app called “Bible in One Year”. It helps a lot and it only takes about 20 mins in the mornings. Also, I have been going back to a Bible Study I use to go to on Wednesday nights but had to stop because of school. God is good!